The “I’m going to have to wake up early tomorrow” blues
I should really be doing my homework.
My night class finished at 7:45 tonight. By the time I could catch a shuttle and settle into my apartment, it was 8:30. Still, not bad.
You can get a lot done and still go to bed at a reasonable hour if you start at 8:30. I can’t, apparently.
This whole time, I could have been doing my homework. Even right now, I could be finishing up the assignment instead of blogging. But nooooooo, I have much more important things to do .
Things like reading about Ben Scrivens or listening to some KRS-One.
This is what I do with my life. No wonder this is “Waste of Time Wednesday.” And here I sit with class at 9:30 tomorrow morning and unfinished homework.
But the thing is, it’s not really that much work. I’ve already done the necessary research, and I just need to type a page. It could have been easy, but now it’s a thing.
Now I have to wake up early. Now I have to catch the first shuttle in the morning. Now I have to hope the JMC building is unlocked. Now I have to hope I can still print in there.
All of these hassles could have been avoided if I wasn’t such a complete idiot. And even though I recognize this, I don’t ever see it changing.
For whatever reason, I would much rather type at 7:00 a.m. than any other time. Maybe it’s the adrenaline rush, or maybe I’m just a morning person. Whatever the reason, it has done little to quell my sense of self-loathing.
Perhaps some day I will see the error in my ways. Until then, I’m going to get my three hours of sleep before my internet shorts out.